时髦的要命还是要命的时髦？

i have been told the JOUNNY & GRACE sounds pleasant and real icon brand,well i know it as well,tell me that i am an ego.
we made it up in a cafeterier which excited us .
grace u 'd better move ur ass back to beijing soon,we have to make our booklet 

to jounny and grace

TRUTH I FOUND OUT REALLY FREAKS ME OUT.

walking 

i am ok on it,cause beautiful thing does not happen that much often as i spent lust days with david or somebody else,people come long and go away,that is normal,the most important thing is u are smart and strong enough to feel not empty afterwards,which is suposed to be funny and easy.

one thing i did not get it over,is about ahsi.i never feel sorry and i can not do some commits when i do not feel about it..this guy..i feel sorry that i can not do something more,even i can not treat him better which he deserves,all things made me look like an asswhole,as tuya said..but i am just sorry..i think it is better to fake saying some sweet words make me a diffrent  gal and puking afterwards.not like david,i just say "ok..sure..alright",and blame about his tring to draw attention behavior without any guit.

 yeah ..about this thing,i am an ASSWHOLE,as guys,but i am totally alright about it. but,i am not playgirl and i am fucking sure about it.

i hope we can all be safe in the next 5 months,no one get hurts.i really hope

sum up

since when,i do not feel,or something that i cared which i was nolonger doing.
acctually,this kinda IGNORING BEHAVIOR does not bother me,what bothers me every fucking single morning before i get up,it makes me struggle.

it seems i am not the ATTITUDE LACKING kind of type,i know where i am going to and i know what excites me .....
but what hell it is exactly?

people always get involved with love,work,and emotions ,some of ur personal habbits as well,that makes a LIFE in common sence,no matter good or bad,it is a life,which should be seriously respected,right?

i did lose my love,i do out of seriouse relationship for more than one year,but i do be able to manage my life without a seriouse relationship as well.which does not mean i do not want a seriouse relationship.in a word,i do need love and i do need myself in love,i do really
but i am not vexed to catch a man to make me in love,that is stupid in deed ,stupid as some couple vexed to get married for reason of unreanalble NO.1.sorry,no offence.
i do believe i can get a warm nice and strong chemical connection love which u have to have crash on,as my theory.

my job is always ok,but i always need more which i am demn sure,all i need is big breakthough,what happened turn to be a big shock and a crush to my carree belief,which is a forver pity i can do nothing to get it back,i lost a fetish and everybody lost him.i am sad ,i know it might last for long time,i do not know how long it takes really.

i hope the things really called hope which lights up my life can be carried by my moves.i need them and i need to try on it,no matter what happend ,even some body left ,i should do the band ,right?even i can get very bad result.i am not afraid of it.

 

我不是个悲伤的人
这个理论从什么时候开始结束的，我不知道，我只是觉得每天都有很多时段我接近于窒息

昨天为我非常敬爱的人守灵整夜，但是他不会再回来了。希望是个绝对相对的词。

昨天我答应自己在为他的悼念仪式工作的时候，不许哭。我做到了。
现在我的心怎么空了？

我知道不只是因为突然发生的巨大伤痛。
是因为一直聚集的悲伤情绪让我无路可走。